Addiction.

Some of you might know this... BUT I am a full blown addict. I never knew what an addiction was until I started using pretty aggressively this summer.... It became a habit... I had to do it twice a day if not more...once in the morning and once at night. It got so severe that I went to the doctors a few months ago... I knowww SHOCKER...but I knew I had a problem...anddd they told me I had to stop or something bad was going to happen....well im writing today because I want to STOP. I feel sorry for anyone that has an addiction because I knowwww I cant go an entire day without it. I think white and its all I want... Jamie and my gf Andrea look at me so akwardly when they see me hide and use.... I mean...its an escape to me...its comforting and it feel great...BUT today I realized I needed to stop before something happens....

       After my trip to Houston which I am going to blog about in a couple days ( clearly) I came home to snow (annoyed) and an annoying fiance telling me he was taking layers off because he was sweating ( even more annoying)..SOO as I was texting him back from the washroom in an annoyed state, I had a moment. I sat in the washroom...looked at my addiction and said thats it... im done with you. So as of today... March 23rd 2011... I am Q-TIP free...apparently those years of using so much made it so you can see the membrane of my ear now...SOO if you see me itching my ears with my eyes shut and with an akward look.. dont judge me.. im going through withdrawl. Let me be my own person and go on with your day. Thank you.